Switching it up.

    I've come to a crossroads in life recently. Do I stay where I am with no hope of moving up? Do I go to one of two places in the same field to try to advance my career? Or do I change fields altogether? What I do know is that I don't want to stay where I am forever. I'll keep my reasons to myself for my own protection.

    I do wonder a lot, how can you treat people like crap and expect them to give 100%? I've always been under the impression that if you take care of those below you in the workplace they will take care of you. How do you get a position, hear that you are being watched and expected to fuck up so they can make you step down months before it happens?

    Sounds to me like it was a sexist/racial thing with how things have played out. You don't want a person for a position then why hire them in the first fuckin place? It doesn't Make sense. Perhaps, if I go somewhere else I could get some supervisor experience and be given the tools I need with some coaching so I am able to grow in a supervisor/manager type role.

    Enough of that though. At the other place that I feel rather interested in, I can only go so far without a master's degree. I don't have any hope of getting a master's in either of the 2 degrees they require.  Reason 1, I am balls deep in debt. Reason 2, I have no urge to get a degree in behavioral science. Reason 3, I have no urge to get a degree in nursing.

    It seems that everywhere I turn there is a block that would stop me. Hell, I don't even know if I would like the job. The worst part about it all, I feel like I have no one to talk to about how I feel about this shit. No one to just listen. I have people all around me and no one to just listen. Hence me venting on a blog...

    I suppose I have to do as I've always done and think deeply on it to figure it out myself. It gets tiresome figuring out shit on my own all the time; always being looked at to make the decision. Except at work, I'm not really looked at at all unless a shift is in need of being covered. But no one gives a shit about that. Well, back to the jumbled mess that is my mind trying to make sense of it all. At least I'm not alone in having a jumbled mess of a mind?