The Battle for Change

    I feel like it's time to start a new chapter in my life. I have 3 vices. Use of my phone or overuse is more like it, drinking way too much soda, and smoking cigarettes. I want to change myself for the better but change is never easy. I'm always looking for the right time to quit smoking and drinking soda. I know, without a doubt, the right time is when you make it. Stopping the overuse of my cell would make the human element of my life better as well as my marriage though my marriage isn't in danger...yet.

    Smoking cigs was probably the dumbest thing I've ever started doing. Why would an asthmatic start doing something that makes it harder for them to breathe? I have no clue myself. However, if I want to start running I have to make myself quit. I've riddled my mind with questions like: how do I stop? What is the best way to stop? What should I do when I'm bored? What can I do when I'm stressed out instead of smoking? The best answer is just stop doing it and re-learn how to live without them. My friend and brother for 20+ years did. If he can do it, so can I. I have to be like him and put my mind to it.

    When thinking of quitting the consumption of soda I think, I really need to not drink it so much. It's bad for my teeth. There are other health risks of course like making your blood thicker and others but my problem is that the taste is so good. That and it's kind of addicting. However, if I just limit myself to just one a day I think it would make all the difference in my life. But it is so good. The good thing about quitting soda is that it is easier to put down than cigs. I think I'll start the "one a day" thing tomorrow.

    The overuse of my cell phone. This just needs to happen. I should be using it as a tool, not as a means of entertainment. Everything in my marriage is good and great as we speak but if I keep my nose buried in it all the time eventually it's going to cause problems between her and I. That won't be good at all. If I am to lose my wife it's going to be for a better reason then never putting my phone down. That would just be sad and pathetic. So starting tonight after I get off work, unless she wants me to play a game with her, my phone doesn't get touched. I refuse to lose her to spending the time on my phone when I should be spending with her.

    After this pack I am on I am going to lay the cigs down no matter how bad I want one I will not bum one or buy any. This is going to be harder than completing college and that was a bitch. Seems like nothing comes easy to me. But, I guess that is a part of my life. To overcome the hard and have a hard time understanding the easy. We shall see how this transformation goes...failure is no longer an option.