The Battle for Change Revisited...

I've made changes in life. After 5 years I finally did it. I am a novice martial artist now. Have a year of BJJ training and 6 months of training in Taekwondo. The biggest and my favorite change; on the 5th of November I will not have had a cigarette for 2 years! I can't believe that I don't smoke anymore. It's a wonderful feeling. By far the hardest thing I've ever done. I do not intend to go back to it. Under NO circumstances. I am a non-smoker...

My second vice... Soda. I am down to one or two a week. This happened because I am tired of drinking so much of it and I am training for a BJJ competition. I don't want anything to get in my way of competing. I don't care if I lose. I have to be my best and give my best. I think I am going to do well in both the gi and no gi divisions. So long as I keep training and push hard to be better.

The third vice... being balls deep in my phone. I have still yet to beat this one. I am getting more and more used to the idea without it. The excuse is that it helps boredom. Well, if I would engage with people, boredom will be taken care of then too right? It may also help things in the marriage. I don't know how much trouble I'm in because of it but it's going to stop. 

This week I am going to be more present. Not because I told my wife that I wanted to go to see a fight with my friends. But because that is what a husband should do. As long as I keep trying to be better than I was the day before, I'll never fail. The battle for change is never ending. To make changes and grow you must become comfortable being uncomfortable.

Fuck the pain... keep going...